Anthony's Journey

The photo of my mom, my dad, and my brother inspired me to write my musical Anthony's Journey, the rise and fall and what I have been dealing with from day one after my mom's death. It was hard for me going through the time of grief and through the weakness within me. It was affecting me physically and emotionally.

Anthony's journey follows Anthony through his life and his grief, and the anger and the balance of dark and light.

Some people don't understand what I am trying to do and they gave me feedback that doesn't feel constructive to me, but I have my own vision for Anthony's Journey and I want to follow it until the end...but to make it easy for them, I want them to understand I am thinking about my whole story and how it helps me to grow.

Anthony sees Jenny suffer the same thing as Anthony, and he asks: "can I help you Jenny? because I know how to lose someone who's not there. Let me help you."

In the musical, Anthony's journey and Jenny's journey are connected and this is part of of their story when they first met because the main goal of the whole story is going through it together until the end. They want to get married but they have a lot of complications with one another.

The last time I did a screening of Anthony's journey was August 7th and even Heidi liked it like that....but I don't see it like that and I wanted to make changes because I see it through the eyes of the character. I know people are trying to help by giving me good feedback but it doesn't help me go forward and I need to end the story in a special way.

The point I am making is that when people don't understand what I am trying to do, they should ask questions instead of assuming.

Everyone wants me to use the book The Elements of Playwriting. I am very grateful for the book but I have my own ideas on how to get to the plot of the whole story. I am not trying to hurt people's feelings....I just have my own way but thank you Cheryl for your help!

I like Shakespeare, but I am not Shakespeare. I am Andreas Prinz, because I lived through it all from the time I saw my mom in her bed and experienced her death and my grief and all its complications.

When I am done with my grief, I know I will get better, and it takes time to get there and I will get there if people give me time....and I am speaking the truth with love. I have been going to church every Sunday to work on my grief and Carol is helping me, and Dave and Ray and Kathryn. They help me a lot and also, John Mark and Carl helped me.

I am so grateful for everyone's help and please don't take it personally when I disagree with some things. I still care about everyone in my life and I love you all very much!

It takes time to heal. It doesn't go away. It is part of you. Grief is like love and when they're not there, you have to accept it....and it takes time for me to be fully transformed and understand and it will change in time. You need to have patience when people experience grief.

My dad is going through difficulties too and he's aging too, and I want to accept these things in my life and my story will help me to understand my own grief and myself! It can help me realize how to accept that my love for my parents will not change, but I will try to go through my weakness and accept that I am going to be OK even though I am not.

I have learned many things in my life and I am afraid that one day my dad will go but I have to learn to appreciate people who help me and appreciate my time with them because if my dad goes today, I have to just learn to live my life.

It takes time to go through this and I need to. The church will help me to go forward and understand Jesus and God because Jesus was suffering like that too before he ended up on the cross and before he was resurrected. He started to cry and mourn and even Mary was scared seeing her son on the cross like me and my mom.

I will get through this with the help of my prayer partners and John Mark. I will get there. I know it's not the time but when it's time I will talk to my prayer partners about my grief and the love that I have for my mom.